The answers you look for are in the Holy Bible, all of the book of the holy bible is true. So do you want a life without fear. JOHN 3:16.. If you ask Jesus Christ to clean your sins away and start a new life he will do it. But you have free well, to turn away and he will turn from you. Everything bad that has happened to you in this life God will clean from you. Once clean God will see you as without sin. As long as you keep trying he will work you through problems. Understand this GOD Loves you.
It's not impotent what has happen to you that matters. It matters what happens to you as a result of what happened to you, that matters.
We all sin, Its harder being good each and every day of our life, that is hard. We live i a fallen world. Ask Jesus Christ into your life and he will help you in ways you would never believe possible. Why because he loves you and ask only that you believe in him and he will give you more then food, water.
Ask Jesus Christ into your life and God will turn the storms of your life into peaceful celebration.
The world will end some day, but not by man time line. No Sin, can God, not forgive it you ask and have faith in him. Do not end your life, have faith and ask him to help you face whatever is before you.
Anyone can be a bad ***. Being good all of the time is harder. But GOD will guide you if you can give one small open space in your life. As Jesus to forgive you NOW.